Faith and Fear

A few weeks ago I lost one of my cheerleaders. She died in a horrible drunk driving accident along with another one of her classmates. 

To say the very least it was a horrifying experience. I have never had to deal with something so tragic in my life. 

Besides the experience bringing me down and out for a few weeks.. it also has brought on an anxiety of death. Suddenly, I am so scared of someone I love dying..

One night, after the accident occurred Josh and I had a conversation while laying in bed. 

S: I don't want to die young, I want to die old with you...

J: We will, I promise. 

S: You can't promise that.

I think I was pretty on point, you can't promise a life. 

But, what you can do is cherish everyday you are given. 

Relish every second of everyday.

This doesn't make my fears go away, but it sure does put it in perspective.